Learning To Sunrise and To Focus Energy

*Love Signal frequencies 528 Hz plays*

It feels like outta nowhere I've gotten this keen sense of focus and 6th sense to feel and pin point my energy towards something. This something is what I like to call the "arts" I've found my zone now I think! Its been alot of different negative things going on in my life and with the people I hold close to me that's been setting me up for this change. I'm in LOVE with it lol. I realized the other day in walmart picking up the XXL 2011 Freshmen Cover that its not even my place anymore to want that right now...I know everything on this blog some how connects with me becoming this "iconic rapper person" But right now I think I could just go to school or something, Question is "WHY WON'T YOU!?" For one, Finical Aid can only do so much. When I finally attend a school its not for parting or to have a swinger's lifestyle, Its to GROW into who I was born to be....most likely somebody with a brash opinion about something.

In my mind, I know deep down I have the ability to live out a dream, But in my heart I know that the sacrifes I'd have to make would be too great to be in such a position my ego would want for me to be at. With that ingrained I know I'm only 20 years of age as of right now and its a big world out there for the taking...WHY take it with JUST music? Alot of cats don't make it till there 26 plus anyways lol not saying that I would't mind  blowing up before 25 I just want.....I just want like my lil big brotha Jali says..."I just wanna make people love me" and with him saying that it put a smile on my face and made me think at the same time like, That should be every bodies goal. Unfortunately we live in a world where you can't please everybody only a few. But just for the record we trying to do that love thing anyways!

I went to sleep kind of early last night too, I told my mother that I wanted to wake up around 4 am just to see how it would feel to actually mediate at that time period(To say I just did it once for the first time in about a month yesterday). Its funny, But as I tried to go to sleep after looking at one of the many info sites I've acquired (via Scottie 2 Hottie) it became a weird experience because I started to not only feel a presence yet actually tippy toe footsteps in my room! Scary thing is I don't think I was bugging at all for the fact It was warm for a min and then the fan would take the warmness away. So get this, At 10 after four my mother ran in my room saying its demonic spirits in this house! So wait it gets better, Of course after that I couldn't go back to sleep without getting the details of why I'm I being woke up outta a sleep to hear you say that??

Even more so, at what time? 4 am!!! So now it becomes clearer....it was actually my brother that was calling out to my mother in his sleep. Now as my brother is concerned he's at the point in his teen life where he's having trouble finding which path to go down without noticing it, And with all of the various negative energy he's put out knowingly its just his karma coming back to him now. Now with my mother calming down after she took my bible outta my room, We sat down just to talk for a min. She's telling me she's having a hard time  dealing with my interest in not being strictly focus on the bible and Jesus in itself. I've tried to explain its my nature right now to want to know more about my culture as a Afrikan descant and how we lived and worshiped before the pre judeo-Christian era. I told her about how I think that its alot of stuff not talked about in black churches when it comes to "The Word of God".......how many times are preachers gonna have a sermon out of the book of John, or Sums, or Luke? We need more out Revelations and certain parts of Ezekiel for that matter.

I don't need to sit up here and watch a black man behind a poolpit dance and do the old fashion break down of words at the end of a sermon, I need to see TEACHERS. Its a fundamental reason why religion is being used to keep our minds closed and this is the age of information so its plenty of ways to come in tune with this knowledge of self that I can't help but be apart of. Now as for sometime interesting, We opened the bible to the book of Ezekiel and started at the 4 verse....It short terms it sounded like a multitude of beast heads or a ufo type of thing...hence code. In addition, I was looking into gemstones before I went to sleep, One of them that sparked my attention was amber......Chp.1,Vs.4 - And I looked, and, behold, a whirlwind came out of the north a great cloud, and a fire infolding itself, and out of the midst thereof as the colour of AMBER, out of the midst of the fire.....Yeah, its becoming even more evident everyday lol 

I'll come up with the rest later on....I'mma go lay down I think ;p

Fruity Loops and Retro Jackets

*Earth, Wind and Fire's All In All Album plays*

Its 1:29am as I type this up, So I'm looking into getting in shape and taking care of my hair (That looks like shit right now......as if it doesn't on the regular hey I'm just saying) And finding a freaking job because this freaking stuff is freaking up the flow of things!!! I mean my ipod recently went out on me and now I'm restricted to just my blackberry and that's all good but I want to scroll and see all those colorful artworks! You never really feel the effects of a beat up ipod until that thing goes out on you and you aren't making money to have it repaired or cop another one (Which that is what I'm going to do since mines was a 120gb so hello 160gb baby!). With that said I'm going to do a couple of job apps online when I wake since this unemployment check stuff will not be able to cut most of the stuff I want to do and save up for.

I've recently been having a calling to FL Studio for a while now and for some time I've been dogging the calling of making my own beats but I know that I can do it I just wish I wasn't so fucking lazy its ridiculous, I'm trying to get out of it for real its just really difficult at times to sit still and focus and no its not the A.D.D its just the habit of not being sufficient in studying (Another habit) *Forgot what I was about to say* Okay, Now that was the A.D.D lol damn it! I mean.....I just NEED my OWN SOUND. Judah Akeem is a vibration of change in itself, CHANGE is EVOLUTION...Without a change in world we'd still be writing with quill pens instead of ink pens and the future wouldn't be having Ipad as subject tablets for students in schools.../Prediction/.

*Curtis Mayfield's Roots Album plays*

With that said, I have a keyboard under my bed and a beat up bass sitting in my corner. WHAT TO DO!? Learn the bass at least and use to keyboard for beats, I would like to cop a beat machine honestly...But only if I can get descent enough on the program first. I want to MASTER the shit but *Remembers what I forgot to say* wants to take SHORTCUTS and that won't cut it if I want my shit to sound like something worth listening to or even vibing too. Original sounds will be kinda of difficult at first since I already see I'm going to be sampling alot of music from the 70s off top for the get go haha.

Now for this old but new craze for a Retro/Military Jacket............